Today we had the opportunity to give away food vouchers again...Something really grabbed me today though...something different...something deeper...I was thinking of what it must have been like to be Jesus. No really...what would he be thinking about as he gave away the vouchers. Jesus would be encouraged that his people have sacrifically gave enough money to provide 160+ food vouchers to HIS community...to feed HIS people.
Then today I was standing at the entrance of our office building...talking with people...people that our Father LOVES and telling them that we were out...we didn't have any more to give...I looked deeply into some of their eyes and sensed the pain...their struggle...my mind went to Jesus again...We read about the people that he healed...we read about the people that he fed...BUT, I believe that there were people that he did not help...yet he saw their needs...he saw their struggles. What an unbelievable heaviness that must have been...NOT a paralyzing heaviness...but a weight...one that he MUST have given to His Father...Jesus...God-as-man...was not, in his human side...able to help everyone...so he must have felt that tension, yet in His perfection, he found peace... I find great power in that...that my Savior knows how I feel tonight...that I am completely EXCITED...PUMPED UP about MANY lives that we were able to touch, help and pray with...AND I feel completely HEAVY about the MANY lives that we were unable to touch.
"Thank you God, that you are just that...GOD...the all powerful...all knowing...creator of the world...who gave us the perfect example in your Son...who knew how to deal PERFECTLY with this tension...the ultimate joy, yet heaviness...AND HE PROMISES to give us the strength and courage to THRIVE and not just survive with the tension that exists between those we are able and not able to help. I sure love you God!"